Thanksgiving 2021... On the Streets

A Note of Thanks.... Giving and Feeling

Gratitude Living on the Streets.

Thanksgiving 2021...

This is my 22^nd Thanksgiving without a home, without

any Inclusion for Thanksgiving; No invites, no Family

or friends to share it with, or Food to nourish my body.

But I have much to be grateful for, nonetheless. I have survived

Decades without a Home. Decades of not getting the rest or

nutrition my body needs. I have survived, lived through and endured

the worst of Humanity, while also being on the receiving end, on rare

occasion, of true Humanity and the healing balm of love and kindness.

Thankfully, the endless harassment I was on the receiving end of

for so long by Law Enforcement for just being present has lessened

considerably, and allowed to just BE, though there are many

occasions where my presence rubs people with the pricey homes and

all the accoutrements they have amassed for the show... still calls

the Police to “Remove that from our Sight...” encounters.

But those have lessened, as well.

I have access to a few restrooms to take care of personal

business (albeit, on the Public Movie Screen), at least during

the day. I have Mobility now in the form of a Vehicle, that puts

a roof over my head now (even though it rains inside the vehicle

whenever it rains Outside), but gives me the safety and protection

I have not had for so long. I am deeply grateful to have mobility,

safety and restroom access to help take care of the barest essentials.

Gratitude fills my heart. Nature's Embrace has helped

tremendously spending another

Holiday Season outside without a home.

As the Decades roll by, and the years add up, finding things to

be truly grateful for are becoming harder to find and fewer to

acknowledge, but I am deeply grateful to finally have some

form of Protection from the elements through the ice covered

nights and mornings, from the harsh, high-powered

winds and(mostly) from the rains. Gratitude.... Just so

Thankful to have all I have.

Thanksgiving 2021

Anniversaries.... Life on the Streets

Anniversaries....

21^st Anniversary of Life on the Streets

Well into the start of my 3^rd DECADE of being forced to 

live on the streets. Today marks my 21^st Anniversary 

of living, or rather barely

existing through the merest hint of living,

 around the periphery of LIFE.

When there should never have been a 

single anniversary, I have spent 21 of them

outside, without a home.

Living on the streets is hard enough, but being forced to live

under the forced health damaging mandates has turned life

on the streets into pure nightmarish hell. Being forcibly

mandated to receive the “Vaccine” from hell in order to be

allowed to BE or GO anywhere in L I F E now....

or be able to participate in anything; Concerts, Events, Dining,

Theme Parks, Amusement Centers...anything and everything.

life was already limited, and now, completely off limits.

That is not a life, and not a life I want any part of.

Being controlled and monitored everywhere you

go, and in all you do. We are here to Live Our Lives...

not be the Governments' Robots where LIFE is not 

allowed, but only by what and how they 

COMMAND through Forced Compliance.

So the limitations of life has become increased a millionfold.

It makes a tremendous impact having to live on the streets,

through the Government Control that mushroomed

over our lives and health, in the most desecrating manner.

We have long since stopped being a Democracy....

They took it all away; Our Constitutional Rights,

Our Civil Liberties, Our Inherent Rights to BREATHE

and Live OUR lives, forcibly taken away by their

Manufactured “Pandemic” and Manufactured "Viruses"

with health destructive Mandates turning our lives, and 

This Country, into a growing nightmare, one we

will never be able to wake from.

Destroying our Humanity from the inside-out...

while permanently destroying our health with the

Suffocation Devices they call “Face Masks”.

Suicides have skyrocketed into the Stratosphere because of it.

So as another anniversary on the streets unfolds before me,

I wonder how many more are to come.... and how much longer

I will last through them as the Government becomes much

more invasive and intrusive into every cell

of our bodies, while controlling our every movement.

21 Years of Permanent Residence of living on

the streets. I have more than done my time...

Life was never meant to be lived in a prison, but that's

exactly what the government has turned our lives into…

while forcing compliance to their Agenda.

How much longer and how much more until there is

nothing left of me but dust in the wind?...

Remember the V A L U E S this Country used to stand for?

Life, Liberty, Freedom... Remember the

 Constitution Of The United States?

How did our Democracy become so imprisoned in 

Control by a Government who is supposed 

to be working FOR US and

instead exerting complete control over our 

lives, our health and our bodies?

Our Humanity is slipping over the Edge, Precariously

balanced on soft sand as we continue to be ensnared in

the Political Nightmare of Covid-19, and being dragged through

the health destroying Mandates continually being forced on us.

The Covid “Vaccines” have minted 9 New Big Pharma Billionaires.

What a surprise... Big Pharma profiting at OUR Expense.

And all of the Dangerous, Damaging Covid-19 Forced Mandates,

Guidelines and Protocols are akin to them telling us all

to Go jump off the cliff onto the Jagged Rocks below because

it is for “Our Health, Safety and Protection”.

It has the same devastating effects on our lives.

We continue to be the Frogs in the Boiling water.

From our Collective illusion of Democracy to the

Nightmare Realty of Full Fledged Fascism...

Our Tax Dollars Hard at WORK!!

The entire world is receiving a crash course in

Machiavellian tactics and strategy.

The substance and heart has been Mandated Out of LIFE....

taken away and removed. Life, in any measurable

quantity, and in any measurable quality,

is no longer sustainable. We cannot live this way, this

isn't living, and it is not a life... Not one Worth “living”,

anyway. We are not allowed to L I V E Our Lives.

We are not allowed to B R E A T H E, not allowed to see

expression, feel or do anything other than what they tell us.

Shelling out the Substance, the Meaning and Purpose...

Leaving behind the Skeletal remains of what life Had 

been, Filled with the GIFT of L I F E, and in its wake

just a Vacuous hole, Like an EMPTY Shadow Box where

the History itself has been erased.

Mandated “Life”.... Mandated “Living”

Our Humanity is being Erased....

Living in a Nightmare.

Getting a roof over my head now, or at any point 

in the future, has become a moot point.... where 

just to have access to a home, I'll be forced 

to get the “Vaccine” in order to 

live inside. I will NOT Consent. My health has 

been severely compromised already as a direct 

result of their forced control in my life.

My Body, My Health... MY Life.... 

none of which are Government Issued, and I will 

not allow them to take command of ME.

So a home in my future, will never likely be the case.

Coming to terms with the hand I was dealt. I will never

accept what has been forced upon me, but I cannot dwell

on never having a real home again, nor will I ever have a

Dwelling to dwell inside of. As the Anniversaries pile up,

life itself becomes more diminished and faded, like

old photos yellowing and curling at the edges.

Our lives being erased from Humanity....

as my life on the streets is being eroded and erased

and covered in Muck, Mired in Quicksand

that is pulling and sucking me into the

depths where life no longer exists.

Birthdays By the Wayside..... My 20th One On the Streets

 

Birthdays... Unremembered

This marks my 20^th Birthday spent on the streets, unremembered by

anyone but myself.... and really, what is the point of Remembering it?

Spent every number from 0-9, and every combination thereof, of them

by myself, on the streets without anyone caring what day it is.

20 Birthdays.... and an untold more to follow

spent on the streets.

Facing my 21^st Anniversary of having to live on the streets, while

heading into a devastating 22^nd Holiday and Winter Season,

Outside, without a home. So much history has happened

within that time, while my History and existence is

being erased into dust.... Well into my 3^rd Decade of

being forced to live outside, without a home.

All the Milestone Birthdays, and the ones that are the

major Markers... all of which, spent on the streets,

Unremembered, Unacknowledged.

Birthdays, just like Holidays, have turned into a Single,

Never-ending Day that goes on forever. Where

everything blends and blurs in a continuous loop.

This one, much like last year's, are so similar, they could

be mirror images.... Fires burning down the state, leaving

so much heart-wrenching hallowed out devastation, while the

skies are blanketed in a murky overcast of smoke,

making the air unbreathable with the thick, heavy smoke

and fumes clogging the air for weeks and months on end.

Still being forced to wear the Suffocation Devices they

call “Face Masks”, as a permanent fixture to our faces, regardless

of the severe health damage they cause, they ignore real

science because it does not fit with their Agenda.

The Government is Aggressively pushing the “Vaccines”

on us, and forcibly Mandating Vaccines in order to

be allowed to be part of life...

That is not a life... and Not a Life I wish to be

part of, Not Now... NOT EVER!!

That isn't living and is not a life worth living,

in any regard. We are Here to LIVE OUR Lives,

not to merely exist at the Government's Command, as their

Puppets on a string, forcing us all to become their

Human Robots...Where we are no longer allowed our Humanity,

Our Voices, Our Lives, Our Bodies. All of which have been seized

by a Government that has forgotten we are Human Beings,

and NOT their property to Destroy, by any means

they choose.

Controlling everything we do, where we go, how we interact,

what we wear, Humanitarian Law is something our Government

is choosing to ignore. Forcing citizens to Comply to their

Agenda, against US.

My Life, My health, My Body are NOT Government issued.

And I refuse to be part of their

Science Experiment as a forced Lab Rat.

So another birthday spent on the streets, in the unbreathable,

                               Smokey air... and no way to get out of the air, no place to go.

Not how I had hoped to spend the day, My Day....

My Birthday, Another Decade of Life, the end of one...

and the beginning of another. And the previous one has

carried right over in continuation into the next.

Our Lives and Health being Decimated by the health

destroying, soul crushing mandates from Hell, which have

become a permanent toxic, destructive, unwelcome

addition to our lives, that has turned living into the worst

Nightmare, a nightmare we will never be able to wake from!

A Very Cruel and Barbaric way to “Celebrate”

another year of being on this planet.

Birthday Greetings from this Prison, formerly

called L I F E.

New Year's 2021...Muted Silence

New Year's 2021... Muted

Life Through Lockdown

The New Year is supposed to be a time of Reflection, of setting Goals,

of a Different Perspective.... have things to look forward to,

to hope for and bring a sense of Renewal. But the start of this New Year

is nothing to celebrate, (as celebrations are not permitted)

in any regard. Forcing us into a permanent Lockdown, and

disintegrating our Humanity... and deeper. Life as we knew

it has been completely destroyed. The Illusion of Democracy, of Freedom,

of our Guaranteed Civil Liberties and Rights were all a dream, and we

have been forcibly dragged into, and ensnared within a Living

Nightmare Reality of Full Fledged FASICSM.

So as one year folds shut, and comes to a close.... the next year unfolds

into the same, carrying over the heavy burden of life, or the

remainder of what had been life.

Our Lives have been irrevocably altered and decimated, while

we are continually dragged through the muck and mire of the

Government actions that have shattered the economy to

pieces and splintered our lives.

Our lives forcibly shut down and we have been permanently banned

from living. Becoming Human Robots....Where we are no longer allowed to

Speak, to think, to believe.... to be Human in any way. Every action, word,

thought and behavior has to be Plastic, no longer allowed to be real

and Authentic, but everything having to be said and done in

Political Tones.

Breathing is now a Luxury, not afforded to ...most.

Civil Unrest becoming a National Pastime. And our Language; that

of endless Violence with Bullets Leading the way.

As one year closes, a year that has been completely CLOSED and

SHUTOFF, and another year starting where the last one ended...

Not a Year of Looking forward to much of anything.

The New Year is already Muted before it began.

Celebrations and gatherings remain forbidden; and the Heavy

Restrictions and Limitations forcibly imposed on our Lives still

firmly in place, along with all the Health Destroying and Soul

Crushing Manadates, Guidelines and Protocols remain in

devastating effect, affecting our lives and Immunity in

Negative ways that we will never be able to recover from.

Being Restricted and Limited and our Lives stopped, is not

what this Country, The United States of America, is about.

This is The United States of America.... The Land of the

FREE. But this Country has long since stopped being a

FREE Country for more than 200 years, now.

New Year's 2021

Holiday Traditions... 2020

 

Holiday Traditions.... On the Streets

2020... Through the Forced Lockdown

Twenty-One Seasons.... of Holidays and Winters Outside

Twenty-One Winters living without a home. Twenty-One Holiday

Blends outside. Seasoning into Life... that is out-skirted

to the outer banks of Society, to the furthest edges of Humanity.... 

Thanksgiving on the streets.. Christmas on the Streets...

New Year's on the Streets. And every Holiday

throughout the year, on the streets.

Holidays are not steeped in tradition living on the streets. But the air

takes on a different feel; electric and vibrant, as though its own heartbeat

pulses with excitement. Where the Air becomes alive with Promise.

While I'll never be grateful for being forced to live on the streets because of the

illegal actions of a despicable landlord, living on the streets teaches you about resilience,

how to improvise and use what you have around you, teaches you how to persevere

through the worst of life... and do much more. There is no way to prepare for and

nothing that prepares you for street life, even when fully immersed in it.

Life.... Disintegrating before my eyes... on the streets. The Nightmare that never Ends.

When is enough enough? Most of my life now having being

totally and entirely consumed....

if not fully devoured, on the streets, where days become one

that mirrors every one before, and all the ones after. Hard enough to

have to live indefinitely outside, without a home. But with the

forced Lockdown, and all the Health destroying, damaging Mandates,

Guidelines and Protocols, have turned that nightmare of life on the streets into

something straight out the of Bowels of Hell, and through the worst “Horror Show”

that could ever be Conceived. Makes a Stephen King Novel look more

like a Children's Bedtime story, in comparison.

This has been the absolute worst Holiday Season I have ever spent on the streets,

hands down. And being out here for 21 of them now, that is saying A LOT.

Soul Crushing, Life destroying. All Hope, All Joy, All Spirit Lifting moments....

Just wiped out. Much like our Health continues to be at the hands of the

Tyrannical Government ordering our lives, in every sense of the word,

under their complete forced control.... using their Mouthpieces of their

Design; The WHO (Government Funded and the biggest Financial backer;

Bill Gates) and the CDC (Backed and funded by the Government,

to tell us only what they want us to hear, and not what the truth is.

Ending 2020 in the Worst ways.... and starting 2021 the same. Everything has been

taken from us.... Our Health, Our Bodies, Our Lives. How we Live, Where we Go,

How we Communicate, and WHEN and with Who, while being forced to

wear Suffocating, unbreathable face diapers called “Face Masks”,

that severe Oxygen out of our existence.

Our Freedoms, Civil Liberties, Our rights Guaranteed under the

Constitution.... Our rights to LIVE and Breathe freely....

All of it forcibly taken from us.

So no, this Holiday Season has not been what Holidays were meant to be,

wrong in every regard, has been erased. Where No contact is allowed.

Our Lives have become Forbidden to Live in any and all regard.

The Holiday air was muted this year. It didn't have that Alive and Electric feel.

But rather just felt dead. This year was wiped of any Traditions, because

Holidays were not allowed to be Celebrated or be a Gathering of any kind.

Travel was banned and just being anywhere forcibly banned.

The Holidays were one of Hell.... Filled to the Brim.

Our Tax Dollars hard at work!

A Holiday Season where Holidays were not permitted.

And the Worst Holiday Season experienced.

Decades Pasts... And Counting

 

 

Decades Past...

Life in the Review Living on the Streets

20 Years of Life, or rather the merest hint of what had been a Life.

Shelled out and Shadowed in form and existence.

Heading into my 21^st Holiday and Winter Season, while living

in the worst Decade of the worst year in our History, as our lives are

pawned off and removed, all for Political gain at our expense.

All of our Inherent rights, our Constitutional Rights, the Amendments,

Our Freedoms, Our Civil Liberties, Our God given right to Breathe....

all of it has been forcibly removed from our lives.

21 Holiday and Winter Seasons on the streets... with an untold more to

follow in its wake. That's how long I have been forced to live, or rather

merely exist behind and underneath the Fumes of Humanity.

Our Health, Our Immunity, Our Well-Being.... and Our very Lives....

Our Bodies and Our Lives are not Government Issue.

Yet, they have finally achieved what they have been wanting

to do for a real long time now, and that is taking

total and complete control over our lives and how we live.

Everything we do, everywhere we go.... all now extensively

restricted. Where we go, what we eat, how we socialize and

interact with others.... Our very Humanity being wiped

from the face of the Earth in every regard.

Forcibly forbidden to live our lives in any meaningful way.

No longer allowed to live. No longer allowed to do anything or

go anywhere. Several months into the forced Lockdown, we are

still not allowed to move freely, or go where we need to go.

As my life on the streets continues to unfold.... each year

becoming worse than the ones before... and 2020 is turning into

the worst year in the history of our lives.  As more and more is

being restricted and forbidden for us to do, life itself is losing

its meaning and purpose. 2020 is a First of many things...

the first year of a new decade, the first year Life itself

has been cancelled indefinitely and everything in it, the

first year where our lives will never be the same.

Living in the center of the Orwellian Nightmare that never ends.

  Facing my 21st Winter and Holiday season on the streets.

One of the hardest things to deal with living on the streets, aside

from the harsh elements... Is having to clean up in icy cold water

in low temperatures...20s, 30s, and 40s. Waking covered in a thick

layer of frost, like frosting on a cake. Having to douse my head in water

that is much colder, than it is outside, like liquid ice, along with washing

my body in freezing water. Taking ice bathing to a whole new level. And

repeatedly having my oxygen and airflow forcibly taken from me all

year with the forced face masks that are suffocating and unbreatheable,

has been making things much worse to contend with,

especially in regards to my health.

Infections happening out of nowhere that won't heal, cuts,

scrapes, bruising happening with higher frequency, and sores that

stay open and raw as a direct result of oxygen deprivation, over

and over again. It's bad enough having to battle the effects of living

on the streets...being a physically challenged female and Being readily denied

proper rest and nutrition, now having to battle ever-increasing

health challenges as a direct result of Government imposed actions.

20 Years Now.... and Still

20 years now...September 1, 2020. Twenty years and counting without a home.

Twenty years plus forced to live on the streets... More than 2 DECADES.

And this year, the worst I have ever experienced.

The draining, soul emptying life outside. The excruciating pain taking up

residence in my right thumb radiating through my hand, wrist and

down my arm. My thumb massively swollen and pointing out from the pad in

a sharp triangle,  the pain is excruciating. The nail bed has a black line across my 

top of my thumb with the left side of the nail black and pale yellow with and ashy

color on the right side. My thumb is swollen and hard. 

 

Making my right hand unusable for anything. It is interfering with sleeping,

interfering with using the restroom, cleaning up, changing...even just sitting.

Feeling like my thumb is being smashed nonstop with spikes being jabbed

through in every angle, while being butchered at the same time.

This anniversary happens amidst the Pandemic (Plannedemic..?),

where the Government is destroying our Immunity. Forcing us to be

muzzled 24/7 in suffocating, unbreatheable face masks...and removing everything

that made life worth living...everything has been taken away...all self serve has been

eliminated; soup, salad, coffees, bulk items, sports, events. Millions of Private

businesses forced to close permanently, while none of the Government

Offices or businesses harmed at all. Forcing social isolation and distance,

barricading our lives from each other.

So with the Government taking control over our lives and the influx of health

issues that has come about as a direct result of the health damaging

mandates forced and imposed upon us and our lives, has

turned this year into a living nightmare. Decades on the streets; a

nightmare unto itself...then everything compiling on top of that. Truly

the WORST year I have ever experienced in any and all regard.