Anniversaries.... Life on the Streets

Anniversaries....

21^st Anniversary of Life on the Streets

Well into the start of my 3^rd DECADE of being forced to 

live on the streets. Today marks my 21^st Anniversary 

of living, or rather barely

existing through the merest hint of living,

 around the periphery of LIFE.

When there should never have been a 

single anniversary, I have spent 21 of them

outside, without a home.

Living on the streets is hard enough, but being forced to live

under the forced health damaging mandates has turned life

on the streets into pure nightmarish hell. Being forcibly

mandated to receive the “Vaccine” from hell in order to be

allowed to BE or GO anywhere in L I F E now....

or be able to participate in anything; Concerts, Events, Dining,

Theme Parks, Amusement Centers...anything and everything.

life was already limited, and now, completely off limits.

That is not a life, and not a life I want any part of.

Being controlled and monitored everywhere you

go, and in all you do. We are here to Live Our Lives...

not be the Governments' Robots where LIFE is not 

allowed, but only by what and how they 

COMMAND through Forced Compliance.

So the limitations of life has become increased a millionfold.

It makes a tremendous impact having to live on the streets,

through the Government Control that mushroomed

over our lives and health, in the most desecrating manner.

We have long since stopped being a Democracy....

They took it all away; Our Constitutional Rights,

Our Civil Liberties, Our Inherent Rights to BREATHE

and Live OUR lives, forcibly taken away by their

Manufactured “Pandemic” and Manufactured "Viruses"

with health destructive Mandates turning our lives, and 

This Country, into a growing nightmare, one we

will never be able to wake from.

Destroying our Humanity from the inside-out...

while permanently destroying our health with the

Suffocation Devices they call “Face Masks”.

Suicides have skyrocketed into the Stratosphere because of it.

So as another anniversary on the streets unfolds before me,

I wonder how many more are to come.... and how much longer

I will last through them as the Government becomes much

more invasive and intrusive into every cell

of our bodies, while controlling our every movement.

21 Years of Permanent Residence of living on

the streets. I have more than done my time...

Life was never meant to be lived in a prison, but that's

exactly what the government has turned our lives into…

while forcing compliance to their Agenda.

How much longer and how much more until there is

nothing left of me but dust in the wind?...

Remember the V A L U E S this Country used to stand for?

Life, Liberty, Freedom... Remember the

 Constitution Of The United States?

How did our Democracy become so imprisoned in 

Control by a Government who is supposed 

to be working FOR US and

instead exerting complete control over our 

lives, our health and our bodies?

Our Humanity is slipping over the Edge, Precariously

balanced on soft sand as we continue to be ensnared in

the Political Nightmare of Covid-19, and being dragged through

the health destroying Mandates continually being forced on us.

The Covid “Vaccines” have minted 9 New Big Pharma Billionaires.

What a surprise... Big Pharma profiting at OUR Expense.

And all of the Dangerous, Damaging Covid-19 Forced Mandates,

Guidelines and Protocols are akin to them telling us all

to Go jump off the cliff onto the Jagged Rocks below because

it is for “Our Health, Safety and Protection”.

It has the same devastating effects on our lives.

We continue to be the Frogs in the Boiling water.

From our Collective illusion of Democracy to the

Nightmare Realty of Full Fledged Fascism...

Our Tax Dollars Hard at WORK!!

The entire world is receiving a crash course in

Machiavellian tactics and strategy.

The substance and heart has been Mandated Out of LIFE....

taken away and removed. Life, in any measurable

quantity, and in any measurable quality,

is no longer sustainable. We cannot live this way, this

isn't living, and it is not a life... Not one Worth “living”,

anyway. We are not allowed to L I V E Our Lives.

We are not allowed to B R E A T H E, not allowed to see

expression, feel or do anything other than what they tell us.

Shelling out the Substance, the Meaning and Purpose...

Leaving behind the Skeletal remains of what life Had 

been, Filled with the GIFT of L I F E, and in its wake

just a Vacuous hole, Like an EMPTY Shadow Box where

the History itself has been erased.

Mandated “Life”.... Mandated “Living”

Our Humanity is being Erased....

Living in a Nightmare.

Getting a roof over my head now, or at any point 

in the future, has become a moot point.... where 

just to have access to a home, I'll be forced 

to get the “Vaccine” in order to 

live inside. I will NOT Consent. My health has 

been severely compromised already as a direct 

result of their forced control in my life.

My Body, My Health... MY Life.... 

none of which are Government Issued, and I will 

not allow them to take command of ME.

So a home in my future, will never likely be the case.

Coming to terms with the hand I was dealt. I will never

accept what has been forced upon me, but I cannot dwell

on never having a real home again, nor will I ever have a

Dwelling to dwell inside of. As the Anniversaries pile up,

life itself becomes more diminished and faded, like

old photos yellowing and curling at the edges.

Our lives being erased from Humanity....

as my life on the streets is being eroded and erased

and covered in Muck, Mired in Quicksand

that is pulling and sucking me into the

depths where life no longer exists.

Decades Pasts... And Counting

 

 

Decades Past...

Life in the Review Living on the Streets

20 Years of Life, or rather the merest hint of what had been a Life.

Shelled out and Shadowed in form and existence.

Heading into my 21^st Holiday and Winter Season, while living

in the worst Decade of the worst year in our History, as our lives are

pawned off and removed, all for Political gain at our expense.

All of our Inherent rights, our Constitutional Rights, the Amendments,

Our Freedoms, Our Civil Liberties, Our God given right to Breathe....

all of it has been forcibly removed from our lives.

21 Holiday and Winter Seasons on the streets... with an untold more to

follow in its wake. That's how long I have been forced to live, or rather

merely exist behind and underneath the Fumes of Humanity.

Our Health, Our Immunity, Our Well-Being.... and Our very Lives....

Our Bodies and Our Lives are not Government Issue.

Yet, they have finally achieved what they have been wanting

to do for a real long time now, and that is taking

total and complete control over our lives and how we live.

Everything we do, everywhere we go.... all now extensively

restricted. Where we go, what we eat, how we socialize and

interact with others.... Our very Humanity being wiped

from the face of the Earth in every regard.

Forcibly forbidden to live our lives in any meaningful way.

No longer allowed to live. No longer allowed to do anything or

go anywhere. Several months into the forced Lockdown, we are

still not allowed to move freely, or go where we need to go.

As my life on the streets continues to unfold.... each year

becoming worse than the ones before... and 2020 is turning into

the worst year in the history of our lives.  As more and more is

being restricted and forbidden for us to do, life itself is losing

its meaning and purpose. 2020 is a First of many things...

the first year of a new decade, the first year Life itself

has been cancelled indefinitely and everything in it, the

first year where our lives will never be the same.

Living in the center of the Orwellian Nightmare that never ends.

  Facing my 21st Winter and Holiday season on the streets.

One of the hardest things to deal with living on the streets, aside

from the harsh elements... Is having to clean up in icy cold water

in low temperatures...20s, 30s, and 40s. Waking covered in a thick

layer of frost, like frosting on a cake. Having to douse my head in water

that is much colder, than it is outside, like liquid ice, along with washing

my body in freezing water. Taking ice bathing to a whole new level. And

repeatedly having my oxygen and airflow forcibly taken from me all

year with the forced face masks that are suffocating and unbreatheable,

has been making things much worse to contend with,

especially in regards to my health.

Infections happening out of nowhere that won't heal, cuts,

scrapes, bruising happening with higher frequency, and sores that

stay open and raw as a direct result of oxygen deprivation, over

and over again. It's bad enough having to battle the effects of living

on the streets...being a physically challenged female and Being readily denied

proper rest and nutrition, now having to battle ever-increasing

health challenges as a direct result of Government imposed actions.

20 Years Now.... and Still

20 years now...September 1, 2020. Twenty years and counting without a home.

Twenty years plus forced to live on the streets... More than 2 DECADES.

And this year, the worst I have ever experienced.

The draining, soul emptying life outside. The excruciating pain taking up

residence in my right thumb radiating through my hand, wrist and

down my arm. My thumb massively swollen and pointing out from the pad in

a sharp triangle,  the pain is excruciating. The nail bed has a black line across my 

top of my thumb with the left side of the nail black and pale yellow with and ashy

color on the right side. My thumb is swollen and hard. 

 

Making my right hand unusable for anything. It is interfering with sleeping,

interfering with using the restroom, cleaning up, changing...even just sitting.

Feeling like my thumb is being smashed nonstop with spikes being jabbed

through in every angle, while being butchered at the same time.

This anniversary happens amidst the Pandemic (Plannedemic..?),

where the Government is destroying our Immunity. Forcing us to be

muzzled 24/7 in suffocating, unbreatheable face masks...and removing everything

that made life worth living...everything has been taken away...all self serve has been

eliminated; soup, salad, coffees, bulk items, sports, events. Millions of Private

businesses forced to close permanently, while none of the Government

Offices or businesses harmed at all. Forcing social isolation and distance,

barricading our lives from each other.

So with the Government taking control over our lives and the influx of health

issues that has come about as a direct result of the health damaging

mandates forced and imposed upon us and our lives, has

turned this year into a living nightmare. Decades on the streets; a

nightmare unto itself...then everything compiling on top of that. Truly

the WORST year I have ever experienced in any and all regard.

 

 

A Century in the Making...

A Century In the Making….

A Life on the Streets…

Hard to believe that I have been on the streets so long without a home.

Been on the streets since just after the turn of the Century, and was

born in the last century. My birth, happened last century, The passing of

my parents, both passing away last century… makes it harder to believe

this is what has become of life… my life.

Starting this Century off on the streets… not a good start.

Decades into this Century, the 21^st Century living in a way

that should have never come about in this powerful country.

But as hate and violence continues to unravel all around this country,

and much of the world, all the ugliness of Humanity is showing more and more.

This is the United States of America, but there is nothing and no one

coming together in unity, but rather becoming more divided and alienated from

each other than this world has ever known. Hate and Intolerance springing

up with wild abandon, violent sprees of mass shootings, bombings, and

knifings, are becoming the norm, or rather have become the norm.

While guns have become our language of choice, and really,

the only language we know how to speak anymore.

As Wild Fires continue to burn down the state from the gross

negligence of a power company refusing to maintain their faulty

equipment, the state fumbles and falls further to the wayside.

Love and loving actions have become more the exception now instead of the rule.

Our guiding lights.... have dimished to such a dimly lit dot, it can barely be seen.

History in the making. But not any history that I wanted to experience.

We have had the most forward thinking inventions to help propel this world

into a fully automated society, but in terms of HUMANITY, things are

at an all time low. How people treat others are inhumane, and filled with HATE.

If our Ancestors were here now, they would be unmoored of the disparity.

There has been so much innovation, so much change, so many things to happen and

come about...yet the one thing that this country can never grasp is how to stop,

prevent and reverse homelessness or becoming homeless. Which has become one of the

worst epidemics this country, and world, has ever known. And instead of helping, this

country forces its citizens to become homeless by increasing prices on everything

by such a huge margin, while not giving the income to compensate, then

allowing landlords full reign to do whatever they want, however they

choose to tenants.... regardless of how illegal their actions are.

This country always jumps in to assist other countries, while ignoring their

very own citizens in the same circusmtances that they imposed on us. This country,

and especially the State of California, is making the cost of living a price that

most people can no longer afford... breathing itself is becoming an expense.

The cost of living is making life unsustainable, to live in any regards,

especially when that life is lived outside, where it makes getting the barest

necessities a very costly endeavor, and more challenges with each passing day.

We are now required to purchase bags in order to carry out the

purchases just made, which cuts into the funds for the necessities,

and you end up getting less because the costs added, and the

extra charges tacked on become a great deterrent to cover

your basic needs.

Being forced out on the streets, then continually denied and refused assistance

to get into better circusmtances while imposing stringent “Guidelines” on

who they will help, when they will help, and how.... as long as you are a junkie,

an alcoholic, chemically dependent, or an illegal immigrant they will give you

housing of your choice, claim they are requiring you to go into “Rehabilitation and

Recovery”... and when you do not fit this “Requirement”, then obviously you

are not really homeless and therefore do not require assitance.

As far advanced as this country, and world, are.... Homelessness should not

even exist in this time in History... But it is the worst it has ever been and

continues to spiral down the black hole of non-existence, while prices

continue to skyrocket so far out of control only the Uber and Ultra Wealthy

are able to have housing and shelter. Life is not sustainable on the streets.

But you areforced to find out how to keep moving forward and

sustain life in the shadowed existence of what had been real and solid.

Circumstances... have you ever given any thought to circumstances?

Have they ever defined you? Were you ever known only for your

circumstance? When you are forced to live on the streets, outside, 24/7

and your circumstance goes from being inside wrapped in the safety

and sheltered by those 4 walls and roof to the wide open skies

that literally become your home... you are entirely defined

by your circumstance, which then becomes a Catch-22

when you do not fit the stereotypical image of the Homeless.

Denied assistance for NOT looking, smelling and behaving

like the preconceived image of what the Homeless

are “Supposed” to present themselves as.

A role I am very ill fitted for. A sewer smelling, trash

dweller who is belligerent and stupid, while displaying

psychotic, CrAzy, very erratic behaviors, who is addicted

to drugs, alcohol and very chemically dependent

who is also a chain smoker.

I have enough demons to contend with without adding more to the mix.

Now, if I were removed from my circumstance and once again

had a home with a solid roof over my head, no one would recognize

me. Because I was only ever seen as nothing more than a

circumstance, not a living, breathing human being.

My life and circusmtance, a continual History in the making.