A Century in the Making...

A Century In the Making….

A Life on the Streets…

Hard to believe that I have been on the streets so long without a home.

Been on the streets since just after the turn of the Century, and was

born in the last century. My birth, happened last century, The passing of

my parents, both passing away last century… makes it harder to believe

this is what has become of life… my life.

Starting this Century off on the streets… not a good start.

Decades into this Century, the 21^st Century living in a way

that should have never come about in this powerful country.

But as hate and violence continues to unravel all around this country,

and much of the world, all the ugliness of Humanity is showing more and more.

This is the United States of America, but there is nothing and no one

coming together in unity, but rather becoming more divided and alienated from

each other than this world has ever known. Hate and Intolerance springing

up with wild abandon, violent sprees of mass shootings, bombings, and

knifings, are becoming the norm, or rather have become the norm.

While guns have become our language of choice, and really,

the only language we know how to speak anymore.

As Wild Fires continue to burn down the state from the gross

negligence of a power company refusing to maintain their faulty

equipment, the state fumbles and falls further to the wayside.

Love and loving actions have become more the exception now instead of the rule.

Our guiding lights.... have dimished to such a dimly lit dot, it can barely be seen.

History in the making. But not any history that I wanted to experience.

We have had the most forward thinking inventions to help propel this world

into a fully automated society, but in terms of HUMANITY, things are

at an all time low. How people treat others are inhumane, and filled with HATE.

If our Ancestors were here now, they would be unmoored of the disparity.

There has been so much innovation, so much change, so many things to happen and

come about...yet the one thing that this country can never grasp is how to stop,

prevent and reverse homelessness or becoming homeless. Which has become one of the

worst epidemics this country, and world, has ever known. And instead of helping, this

country forces its citizens to become homeless by increasing prices on everything

by such a huge margin, while not giving the income to compensate, then

allowing landlords full reign to do whatever they want, however they

choose to tenants.... regardless of how illegal their actions are.

This country always jumps in to assist other countries, while ignoring their

very own citizens in the same circusmtances that they imposed on us. This country,

and especially the State of California, is making the cost of living a price that

most people can no longer afford... breathing itself is becoming an expense.

The cost of living is making life unsustainable, to live in any regards,

especially when that life is lived outside, where it makes getting the barest

necessities a very costly endeavor, and more challenges with each passing day.

We are now required to purchase bags in order to carry out the

purchases just made, which cuts into the funds for the necessities,

and you end up getting less because the costs added, and the

extra charges tacked on become a great deterrent to cover

your basic needs.

Being forced out on the streets, then continually denied and refused assistance

to get into better circusmtances while imposing stringent “Guidelines” on

who they will help, when they will help, and how.... as long as you are a junkie,

an alcoholic, chemically dependent, or an illegal immigrant they will give you

housing of your choice, claim they are requiring you to go into “Rehabilitation and

Recovery”... and when you do not fit this “Requirement”, then obviously you

are not really homeless and therefore do not require assitance.

As far advanced as this country, and world, are.... Homelessness should not

even exist in this time in History... But it is the worst it has ever been and

continues to spiral down the black hole of non-existence, while prices

continue to skyrocket so far out of control only the Uber and Ultra Wealthy

are able to have housing and shelter. Life is not sustainable on the streets.

But you areforced to find out how to keep moving forward and

sustain life in the shadowed existence of what had been real and solid.

Circumstances... have you ever given any thought to circumstances?

Have they ever defined you? Were you ever known only for your

circumstance? When you are forced to live on the streets, outside, 24/7

and your circumstance goes from being inside wrapped in the safety

and sheltered by those 4 walls and roof to the wide open skies

that literally become your home... you are entirely defined

by your circumstance, which then becomes a Catch-22

when you do not fit the stereotypical image of the Homeless.

Denied assistance for NOT looking, smelling and behaving

like the preconceived image of what the Homeless

are “Supposed” to present themselves as.

A role I am very ill fitted for. A sewer smelling, trash

dweller who is belligerent and stupid, while displaying

psychotic, CrAzy, very erratic behaviors, who is addicted

to drugs, alcohol and very chemically dependent

who is also a chain smoker.

I have enough demons to contend with without adding more to the mix.

Now, if I were removed from my circumstance and once again

had a home with a solid roof over my head, no one would recognize

me. Because I was only ever seen as nothing more than a

circumstance, not a living, breathing human being.

My life and circusmtance, a continual History in the making.