The Year in Closing... 2025

2025 – The Year in Closing

This year has a deep mix of being a blessing and one of the

worst years I have experienced. Having my lifeline and mobility

forcibly taken from me by and through the actions of another,

leaving me stranded in the middle of life, forced to be a

permanent by-stander on the sidelines of my own life.

It has been a very rough, hard year in many ways and a comfort in a few.

Being on foot has been a real challenge, to say the least, trying to take care

of what I need to, most of which I have not been able to do being on foot.

So much I need to take care of that cannot be done on foot. Things that

cannot wait forever for me to get to. Put more miles on my feet than

most people do in their cars, and yet I am able to take of very little.

Being on foot takes a tremendously hard toll on your body,

especially when you are physically challenged as a

direct result of another’s actions.

But one of the many blessings I am counting is being off the streets

and having a roof over my head where I am not directly in the

elements like I had been for a quarter of a century. And hopefully,

being off the streets is permanent. I cannot go back to that. It took

so much from me, so much away from me. But the streets are so

deeply embedded through every fiber of my being, I can no

sooner erase it from my life, my memories,

my body than I can stop breathing air.

Living, or rather merely existing around the threads of society, for

so long, not only strips you of your Self, but completely erases and

destroys it in every measurable way. It splinters and fragments

that completely shred the Self in millions of shards and pieces

that can never be fully re-collected and made whole. There

will always be pieces missing that cannot be

replaced or restored.

Life on the streets wipes it out, takes a tremendous amount

away from you., things that you can never get back.

But unable to go anywhere, since my lifeline was taken from me,

leaving me permanently on foot, which makes it all but impossible

to take care of much or be able to go anywhere, left stranded.

My life limited and restricted by and through the actions of another.

And being endlessly rattled and shaken, repeatedly by literally

100s of earthquakes that has hit in numerous clusters for over a

month., and continues. Each one, and then the long succession

of them, leaves a feeling of being rattled, unsettled and a

more than a little disturbing and disorienting.

It has been a very damaging, devastating year. There is no good

time to be without a vehicle, your Lifeline and mobility, but this time

of year is the absolute worst to be without one and forced to be a

permanent by-stander on the sidelines of your own life,

pushed to the wayside...

Having a roof over my head, however temporary it may be, without

a vehicle is much easier to bear than the same being on the streets

without one, which was the case for several years. At the very least,

I am not out directly in the elements through the night, and that

in and of itself, is such an incredible blessing.

This is one year that will not be missed.

But one impossible to forget.

As the year comes to a close, 2025 leaves more than an indelible

mark and the impression, not a good one at that. Not all scars are visible.

Closing of 2025...