Thanksgiving Notes...
From a Life on the Streets...
Life can definitely take a cruel, hard turn at any
moment. And leave you reeling for the rest of
your life. I have had moments like this.
Many moments... And one of the Cruelest
I have been hit with and left with, was being forced
to live, or rather merely exist, in the shadows of
the Periphery of Society, of Humanity, and
of Life itself. Being forced out onto the
streets by and through the illegl actions from
a despicable landlord was the cruel, hard turn
I was never prepared for. And no amount
of training could prepare anyone to live
permanently without a home as I have been.
Heading into My 23rd Holiday and Winter
Season of being forced to live on the streets. A sentence
that should be reserved only for the cruelest of
humanity as punishment for their crimes.
I no longer look forward to the Holidays, to
Winters and all the unbalanced weather.
Holidays used to hold a special place in my
heart... as the air turned more electric and pulsed
with its own heartbeat... and the Season would fill
with magic. Hearts were softened, grudges were
put aside, there was less judgement.
But that has long since passed... and the air has
become toxic with Hate and Anger, Fear and War.
A Culture that now stews and brews, marinating
in grudges and disagreements.
Spending Holidays, and endless Seasons
on the streets takes a tremendous toll on every
fiber of your being and is beyond Draining.
And there is no Celebrating... No feeling
of belonging, not involved and included,
especially when it comes to Holidays.
Holidays become just another day on the streets...
feel exactly the same as every other day of the
year. The Fairy Dust that the Holidays
used to be filled with has long since vanished and
lost its Magic. I dread Holidays now. Have for
a Long time. But I still want to believe
they hold Promise... And Hope.
That there is Always a Better
to come about at some point;
Better Circumstances, Better Living
Arrangements.... Hope that Life itself will
finally be GOOD.
Even though I have no excitement
toward the Holidays and no longer look
forward to any of them... I am Grateful
to have what I need, for the moment.
I am filled with Gratitude for all
the incredible help and support from
the Community I have received all year.
Helping me with Water, with necessities,
with my vehicle. Restoring my mobility to a
greater degree. For allowing me into their
Homes to care for their lives, their plants and
their cherished pets... Trusting me with
all they treasure. I am deeply grateful.
Living on the streets, Holidays look
nothing like the Commercialized Versions that so
many take for granted, because so many
have those same versions they adopted, so they
look and feel like what people expect.
But on the streets, there are no expectations.
No Holiday Traditions, no schedules, no
meals to make... On the streets, Holidays
are just another day unfolding like all the
others and start and end just like every day
of the year.
I am Thankful
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