Monday, June 26, 2017

Because Life Happens...






Because Life Happens….



I find myself forced to live on the streets…..Because Life Happens.
Plans go by the wayside, and time and again, Life happens…. And
interferes and gets in the way of living.

Because Life happens, it loses meaning and has no
purpose to any of it. I still expect to
receive any of the promises of life we were promised in God’s word,
the Bible….such as; “I Have Plans for
Your Life to be Prosperous and not Harm You”.
Still waiting for that promise to be kept. Because Life Happens….
Life has been very Harmful, Devastating, Ugly…..
Because Life Happens…. Life has been overall unpleasant.

Because Life Happens… people are readily denied the services
and assistance they need. Because Life Happens,
Wars are an ever-present presence in our lives. Because Life Happens….
Death is all around us. Because Life happens….Life is what it is.

Because Life happens….. people are forced to live their life,
or rather, their merest existence, on the streets…. I was given a life sentence
by and through the illegal actions of others. Memories the body remembers,
even when you do not want to remember. Because Life Happens….
Your body never forgets. It remembers in pain, and never lets you or allows you to forget. 
Because Life Happens…. Things happen that are completely out of our control...
We have Regrets, We become Nostalgic, We Consume, We make Mistakes,
We Measure Time, We Compare, We Compete, We Learn, We Grow. 

Because Life Happens… Life is as it is. Because Life happens….
We BREATHE, We Live, We Love, We Grieve, We Hope,
We Die….. All Because Life Happens.
















Friday, June 23, 2017

Relief From Summer's Heat...


Relief From Summer’s Heat…
Living on the Streets


When your life is delegated to the streets,
as a permanent residence,
finding relief from Winter’s Grip and Summer’s excessive heat
become real challenges as we do not have homes to go to to
get out of it. You learn to become resilient, self-reliant,
and adaptable in order to live, BREATHE, and continue
to move forward, in whatever capacity that may be.
Being forced to live on the streets for so long, I cannot
weigh which is worse, trying to find cooling relief
in the sizzling heat of Summer,
or some warmth in the freezing Winter. Both of which offer
up a host of challenges to contend with. But it is much easier
to find warmth, than it is to cool off in the excessive heat,
which you find impossible.

Just some of the challenges the excessive heat poses to
those of us without homes; movement and breathing are
the ones hardest hit with the heat. As the heat becomes
more like living on the inside of an oven left on all
day at 500* degree temperatures, it makes it harder to breathe,
and move about, because the heat is so very draining and exhaustive.
But allows for better movement in the body, as it loosens the joints.
Though, it has a nasty tendency to cause fluid build-up
and swelling through your extremities,
which makes it more challenging to move.

Waves upon waves of heat flows over you like an ocean.
The pressure of the heat has a heaviness that cooler weather does not.
The air feels much heavier in the exhaustive heat of Summer than in Winter,
where the air is crisp and easier to breathe. In the Summer,
the heat feels like a thick blanketed shawl wrapped tightly
around your body, while the cooler temperatures of Winter
releases heat and the air is much lighter and freer.
But the cold temperatures make it harder to
move through your joints, because they
become tight and stiff in the cold air.
Having to use the restroom, especially during the night,
is much more difficult in the Summer’s heat, due to the
damp/soaked clothing from perspiring so much, whereas in the
Winter, your clothes slide easily off to change or
use the restroom.

Getting any rest during the Summer heat is a real challenge,
since the nights do not cool off much, if any.
And when you are too hot, sleep just doesn't happen, or if it does,
very restless and leaves you even more tired come morning.
The heat drains you of all your energy and leaves you feeling listless.

Food storage is nonexistent in the high heat of Summer.
Food doesn't keep in the heat. Fruit and produce goes
bad in just minutes, while in Winter…. It will last a little while,
allowing you to get to it while it is still good. You end up wasting
what little money you have on food, only to find it no good
just shortly after purchase because of the heat.
And being on the streets, you do not have a safe place to store,
prepare and cook foods. You have to rely on what is
already made, and then you have to consume it immediately,
or you might as well dump your money in the trash,
because that is where the food goes.

The worst thing about having to live on the streets,
especially during the hot summer months,
are the insects that come out en mass when it is warm.
Things you have never seen before, or read about,
but find them assaulting you day-in, day-out.
and coming out really heavy starting in the early evening,
swarming you through the night, and slightly
lessening through the morning to mid-afternoon.

On the plus side, though… I am so grateful to be on the streets
here in the Bay Area, where the winds are cleaner
(that is unless smokers are around, making it
impossible to breathe anything akin to clean, fresh air),
and not the harsh, rough, highly abrasive sand
papery air that the desert air is.
Desert air always feels like moving and breathing
through liquid sand paper at every moment,
not to mention living inside of a furnace.
And the summer heat is a few degrees cooler…
Being on the streets could be worse, if I were not
residing everywhere and nowhere
here in the San Francisco Bay Area.